"SO Kris...what brings you in today?"
Seriously....it's been forever since I have been able to breathe...I went through 3 boxes of tissues in 2 days and a whole bottle of that saline spray. I tried a neti-pot and almost downed myself.
Screw this homeopathic crap...inject some damn poison up in me so my eyeballs stay in my head and I can breathe through both nostrils simultaneously...hell...I would settle for one at this point.
AND
in addition to this obvious infectious mess in my nose...I have a yeast infection!!! Seriously...and acne...
Like could my body rebel more?
So...
After listening to the soothing sounds of a sick motorcycle at volume 756 while fighting off a migraine and listening to the Bird go on and on about Blues Clues, I got a whopping 52 mins of sleep...
52 mins
The Bird was up again at 6:30. It's f*ckin summer break kid...I would love to sleep in...or just sleep.
And then she is jazzed for swimming lessons
Swimming lessons are at 11am
It was 6:30
She asked every 7 mins if it was time to go
Every
Seven
Minutes
I drew a clock to show her what the clock would look like
We sang songs about patience
We colored
We read
and still....
Every
Seven
Minutes
And...
I told the hubby yesterday, that I needed a break...seriously...
and he said...oh you always ask for one
Now...I could get real petty here and go back through all our conversations and let him KNOW that at no time did I ask for a bird break...in the entire history of our cell phone plan
but
I didn't
I may have fantasized about chopping off his head and sending it careening into traffic on his f*ckin motorcycle but I did NOT point out that it has never happened.
In fact...I have frequent fantasies about chopping off various parts of him. It could stem back to the fact that I have been waiting for 5 years...he says 1.5 but whatever...for him to finish the F*CKin basement. Seriously...living in limbo for 5 years and can't organize anything because the place for half the crap isn't ready yet but he has like...UNLIMITED time to work on these time and money suck motorcycles and bitch about how he never gets to do anything...like making other people food and doing laundry on "vacation" is really VACATION for me...
AND
that's another thing...we go on vacation and I spend hours every day doing laundry and making food...seriously...what the F*CK kind of vacation is that? Like, I could have done that at home and not spent $45,000
All I want to do is read a whole book without interruption...a WHOLE book. I can't even read a damn recipe without someone asking for something....for instance...the bird has asked for something no less than 1000 times while I have been "talking."
AND
That's another thing. I understand she has autism but F*CK autism because, seriously...
EVERY
SEVEN
MINUTES....
Seriously...the only alone time I have had in about 18 years is right now...in this dr's office.
AND
I have this crazy spot on my chin where a chin hair always pops up (hello 40+...)and I just KNOW there is a hair there but I can't find it and I may have created a whole sort of crater there but I know it is there (dirty bastard)
That's what I WANT to say to the dr....I mean...that's my answer....
"Well...I have had this cough and runny nose for a couple of weeks now" is what I will really say.....
All while relishing the fact that no one is asking me when swimming lessons are.
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Sunday, February 22, 2015
WWWWWWwinter
It is so cold....
I mean the kind of cold where your nose freezes shut and you better not cry or your eyes will seal shut too
The kind of cold that hurts when you inhale
It's cold
Tomorrow, baby bird needs to go get her tubie changed. She has been counting down for a couple of weeks now and we are ALL grateful that tomorrow is the day.
Getting her tubie changed does not hurt her...it's like changing a pair of earrings...every 6 months she goes in and has a new one placed.
Her tubie has been a lifesaver. It allows us to keep her hydrated, administer her meds, and supplement her meals. My bird is already up to 41 pounds!!! Pretty good for a little nugget that we signed DNR paperwork on two years ago.
Yay for the tubie!
Here's hoping tomorrow is so cold they cancel school OR a heat wave happens. This mamabird would like to go to the tubie doctor with the bird instead of missing out and teaching.
I mean the kind of cold where your nose freezes shut and you better not cry or your eyes will seal shut too
The kind of cold that hurts when you inhale
It's cold
Tomorrow, baby bird needs to go get her tubie changed. She has been counting down for a couple of weeks now and we are ALL grateful that tomorrow is the day.
Getting her tubie changed does not hurt her...it's like changing a pair of earrings...every 6 months she goes in and has a new one placed.
Her tubie has been a lifesaver. It allows us to keep her hydrated, administer her meds, and supplement her meals. My bird is already up to 41 pounds!!! Pretty good for a little nugget that we signed DNR paperwork on two years ago.
Yay for the tubie!
Here's hoping tomorrow is so cold they cancel school OR a heat wave happens. This mamabird would like to go to the tubie doctor with the bird instead of missing out and teaching.
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Contagious
Often times, well...OK...most times, a mood is contagious. You know, when you are around happy people, you get a little happy. When you are around people who laugh all the time, you laugh. You get my point.
Well, what about when you are around negative, soul-sapping people? It's a real struggle to remain positive.
We all know this...it isn't like I just discovered some new and amazing truth. We all KNOW this.
The problem, for me anyway, comes in when I don't realize how negative and soul-sapping a person is becoming. Some people enter our lives and they are that all consuming kind of negative and we skedaddle up out of there, just like we KNOW to do. But, some people enter our lives and they are happy and positive and we high five them and call them buds and invest some time and care into our relationships with them...and, they gradually become negative.
Like creeping charlie...my grandma used to HATE that stuff. I loved it because it smelled green and had pretty little purple flowers and I would be all sad when my grandma attacked it like it was some sort of psychopathic killer, hunting down her family. Man, she dug it out and poured boiling water on it. If she would have had acid and a blow torch handy, she would have incinerated it. And you know what? No matter what she did, it just grew back. She fought it for forever but, I am sure it is still there, on that patch of ground by the garage and her rose bushes, on the way to the rhubarb.
She was so determined to kill it because she said it choked out all the other plants (namely the roses.) And, that is kind of how it is with those sneaky, negative, soul-suckers. They start out looking all pretty and smelling all new and then they just kill you down by the roots.
So...how o we ferret them out? How do we let go of those people who maybe didn't start off so happy-stealing but sort of ended up there...and are they stuck there forever...and is it our job to know if they are stuck there forever or do we just cut and run as fast as our legs can take us?
I'm not sure of the answer...hoping someone else has an easy solution.
What I do know is that it took me a long time to find my own happiness and peace. It was hard fought and I am not relinquishing it for anyone :)
Well, what about when you are around negative, soul-sapping people? It's a real struggle to remain positive.
We all know this...it isn't like I just discovered some new and amazing truth. We all KNOW this.
The problem, for me anyway, comes in when I don't realize how negative and soul-sapping a person is becoming. Some people enter our lives and they are that all consuming kind of negative and we skedaddle up out of there, just like we KNOW to do. But, some people enter our lives and they are happy and positive and we high five them and call them buds and invest some time and care into our relationships with them...and, they gradually become negative.
Like creeping charlie...my grandma used to HATE that stuff. I loved it because it smelled green and had pretty little purple flowers and I would be all sad when my grandma attacked it like it was some sort of psychopathic killer, hunting down her family. Man, she dug it out and poured boiling water on it. If she would have had acid and a blow torch handy, she would have incinerated it. And you know what? No matter what she did, it just grew back. She fought it for forever but, I am sure it is still there, on that patch of ground by the garage and her rose bushes, on the way to the rhubarb.
She was so determined to kill it because she said it choked out all the other plants (namely the roses.) And, that is kind of how it is with those sneaky, negative, soul-suckers. They start out looking all pretty and smelling all new and then they just kill you down by the roots.
So...how o we ferret them out? How do we let go of those people who maybe didn't start off so happy-stealing but sort of ended up there...and are they stuck there forever...and is it our job to know if they are stuck there forever or do we just cut and run as fast as our legs can take us?
I'm not sure of the answer...hoping someone else has an easy solution.
What I do know is that it took me a long time to find my own happiness and peace. It was hard fought and I am not relinquishing it for anyone :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
TOP TEN THINGS THAT ANY FEMALE OF ANY AGE SHOULD WEAR
This morning, while enjoying my morning off (I have a doctor consult today and a two hour late start...didn't make sense to drive an hour to school to stay for an hour and then drive an hour home....I also realized that there was no time to get the things done after my consult that needed to get done but that...that is a whole other post) I decided to read one of those "24 things women over the age of (fill in the blank) shouldn't wear" articles.
I am over the age of (fill in the blank) so I thought I would get a chuckle since I am almost always wearing whatever I shouldn't be...it's a gift, really.
So, I read said article and found I shouldn't be wearing ponytails (check...just got all my hair cut off so ixnay on the onypailtay) or worn on sneakers (helllllloooooo chuck taylors until they spring holes) or comfy jeans (they really said that..."we know these jeans fit extremely well and are comfortable but you really shouldn't wear this brand after fill in the blank age!) and I started thinking...well...fuming actually...
Why is it that people (usually other women...let's be honest here) think they can tell me what I can and can't wear after ANY fill in the blank age?
So I have come up with the top ten most important things that any female of any age should wear...
TOP TEN THINGS THAT ANY FEMALE OF ANY AGE SHOULD WEAR
8. Empathy. Not just the ability to understand a situation but the ability to share in others' emotions. Empathy is what makes us humans (along with opposable thumbs) and is something we need to practice and encourage in ourselves. It is scary to be open to those feelings but the return is priceless.
9. Courage. The world is scary. Feelings are scary. Even clowns are scary. But each of these situations require courage. We need to have courage to grow and experience changes. Some changes are good and some might not be but we have to have courage to try because stagnating is death and we are living things. We need to have courage to do that living.
10. Individuality. Because...well...dammit...we are individuals! We should not try to BE someone else. We are unique, amazing, creative, inventive, caring, funny, crazy, beings and that is enough. Never be afraid to be who you are...you were gloriously made...be proud of that.
I am over the age of (fill in the blank) so I thought I would get a chuckle since I am almost always wearing whatever I shouldn't be...it's a gift, really.
So, I read said article and found I shouldn't be wearing ponytails (check...just got all my hair cut off so ixnay on the onypailtay) or worn on sneakers (helllllloooooo chuck taylors until they spring holes) or comfy jeans (they really said that..."we know these jeans fit extremely well and are comfortable but you really shouldn't wear this brand after fill in the blank age!) and I started thinking...well...fuming actually...
Why is it that people (usually other women...let's be honest here) think they can tell me what I can and can't wear after ANY fill in the blank age?
So I have come up with the top ten most important things that any female of any age should wear...
TOP TEN THINGS THAT ANY FEMALE OF ANY AGE SHOULD WEAR
(that's kind of a mouthful...I will work on shortening that up)
1. Confidence. There is no more important accessory than confidence. We should all possess it and strive to give it to others. Females seem to believe their self-worth is found in the eyes of other people. Confidence helps remind us that our self-worth, our value, is not based on the clothes we wear (or don't wear) or how others see us. Confidence teaches us that our value comes from within and it is something we carry with us, with or without those comfy jeans with the wrong brand label.
2. Joy. We must never be without joy. Joy is one of those amazing things that just seems to multiple the more we share. Finding joy is essential to nourish our soul and to help us always see the positives in life. It is also a great compliment to confidence.
3. Intelligence. Our brain needs to be worked every day. Never be satisfied with idea that you "know enough." Learning is what keeps us engaged in life and you can never have too much. Our intellectual growth should be prized and encouraged.
4. Gratitude. There is so little gratitude found in our world today and yet we all have so much to be thankful for. It does not diminish the shine to thank the person who has enabled it.
5. Humility. This does not mean you are defeated or less than someone or something else. This just means you recognize that you are not the sun and the world is a big place and doesn't revolve around you. Humility reminds us of where we have come from and sets the horizon clear for our future.
6. Friendship. Is there anything better than being with your best friend, the person who knows your deep, dark, dirty secrets and who loves you anyway (maybe even because of them)? Good friends are a rare treasure and should be treated as such. If you want to know the true character of a person, look to see who they surround themselves with.
7. Faith. I don't mean any specific denomination. I mean...faith. The belief that there is something there, something MORE than you. My faith has been one of the most important things in my life and has been a life rope when I have felt all alone.
1. Confidence. There is no more important accessory than confidence. We should all possess it and strive to give it to others. Females seem to believe their self-worth is found in the eyes of other people. Confidence helps remind us that our self-worth, our value, is not based on the clothes we wear (or don't wear) or how others see us. Confidence teaches us that our value comes from within and it is something we carry with us, with or without those comfy jeans with the wrong brand label.
2. Joy. We must never be without joy. Joy is one of those amazing things that just seems to multiple the more we share. Finding joy is essential to nourish our soul and to help us always see the positives in life. It is also a great compliment to confidence.
3. Intelligence. Our brain needs to be worked every day. Never be satisfied with idea that you "know enough." Learning is what keeps us engaged in life and you can never have too much. Our intellectual growth should be prized and encouraged.
4. Gratitude. There is so little gratitude found in our world today and yet we all have so much to be thankful for. It does not diminish the shine to thank the person who has enabled it.
5. Humility. This does not mean you are defeated or less than someone or something else. This just means you recognize that you are not the sun and the world is a big place and doesn't revolve around you. Humility reminds us of where we have come from and sets the horizon clear for our future.
6. Friendship. Is there anything better than being with your best friend, the person who knows your deep, dark, dirty secrets and who loves you anyway (maybe even because of them)? Good friends are a rare treasure and should be treated as such. If you want to know the true character of a person, look to see who they surround themselves with.
7. Faith. I don't mean any specific denomination. I mean...faith. The belief that there is something there, something MORE than you. My faith has been one of the most important things in my life and has been a life rope when I have felt all alone.
8. Empathy. Not just the ability to understand a situation but the ability to share in others' emotions. Empathy is what makes us humans (along with opposable thumbs) and is something we need to practice and encourage in ourselves. It is scary to be open to those feelings but the return is priceless.
9. Courage. The world is scary. Feelings are scary. Even clowns are scary. But each of these situations require courage. We need to have courage to grow and experience changes. Some changes are good and some might not be but we have to have courage to try because stagnating is death and we are living things. We need to have courage to do that living.
10. Individuality. Because...well...dammit...we are individuals! We should not try to BE someone else. We are unique, amazing, creative, inventive, caring, funny, crazy, beings and that is enough. Never be afraid to be who you are...you were gloriously made...be proud of that.
Thursday, November 13, 2014
snow days and flakes and angels
Monday, all 3 of the birds had snow days...even Mamabird got the day off (well...I already had it off but...it was still nice to have it off)
I had planned on getting a lot more done but snuggling with all my babies and drinking hot chocolate can't be beat. Is there anything better, really, than warm socks, hot chocolate and snuggles?
Bird loves the snow...this is the 1st year she has really enjoyed parts. She had to go outside and try to catch some flakes on her tongue and she flopped down in the yard to make an angel. She also assumed that the snow meant Santa was coming. So...this is the 1st year she understands the idea of Santa. Let's hope it turns out to be a good behavior motivator. :)
Beans are soaking tonight for some navy bean and ham soup this weekend...Bird was very chirpy and making loads of yum sounds so here's hoping she eats it. Luckily it is easy to blend up in case she goes on a food strike (she has been sort of picky lately which makes me glad she has her tubie.)
The oldest Hardy Boy has joined basketball...in his senior year! It will be an interesting experiment for sure.
He took his ACT and scored pretty well (which is very good since his GPA is very bad) and now we are just waiting to hear back from his schools. His first choice is University of Minnesota Moorhead (Go Dragons.) Fingers Crossed.
Youngest Hardy is, once again, on xbox lockdown. Poor kid...but he needs to abide by the rules (being a mom is hard sometimes.)
Now, if only they would both get jobs already!!!
I had planned on getting a lot more done but snuggling with all my babies and drinking hot chocolate can't be beat. Is there anything better, really, than warm socks, hot chocolate and snuggles?
Bird loves the snow...this is the 1st year she has really enjoyed parts. She had to go outside and try to catch some flakes on her tongue and she flopped down in the yard to make an angel. She also assumed that the snow meant Santa was coming. So...this is the 1st year she understands the idea of Santa. Let's hope it turns out to be a good behavior motivator. :)
Beans are soaking tonight for some navy bean and ham soup this weekend...Bird was very chirpy and making loads of yum sounds so here's hoping she eats it. Luckily it is easy to blend up in case she goes on a food strike (she has been sort of picky lately which makes me glad she has her tubie.)
The oldest Hardy Boy has joined basketball...in his senior year! It will be an interesting experiment for sure.
He took his ACT and scored pretty well (which is very good since his GPA is very bad) and now we are just waiting to hear back from his schools. His first choice is University of Minnesota Moorhead (Go Dragons.) Fingers Crossed.
Youngest Hardy is, once again, on xbox lockdown. Poor kid...but he needs to abide by the rules (being a mom is hard sometimes.)
Now, if only they would both get jobs already!!!
Friday, November 7, 2014
Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
It's getting chilly up in these parts. Last night, Cori and I ventured down to Northrup auditorium with the Bird and caught the Hong Kong Ballet.
She was enchanted.
We also arrived early enough that the ballerinas were entering, to go to the director's dinner beforehand, and stopped and chatted with her. Mesmerized would be how I described her. Enchanted with all things ballet :)
Luckily, we got there that early because between finding a place to park and the Bird and I having to run all over campus to locate an ATM to pay for parking, Big Daddy Superstar barely made it to his seat in time.
The Bird spent the whole 2 hours staring at the stage and gasping in wonder. A trip to see the nutcracker for Christmas may be in order. :)
We are also exploring the idea of ballet lessons for her. Right now, she is in Just for Kix and she has lots of fun but we think the discipline and order of ballet may be something that helps her as well.
The Hardy Boys continue to plod through school. The oldest has now decided to take up basketball...in his senior year...to stay in condition for track.
The youngest got a pencil stuck in his trumpet...really...I can't make this stuff up.
It's getting chilly up in these parts. Last night, Cori and I ventured down to Northrup auditorium with the Bird and caught the Hong Kong Ballet.
She was enchanted.
We also arrived early enough that the ballerinas were entering, to go to the director's dinner beforehand, and stopped and chatted with her. Mesmerized would be how I described her. Enchanted with all things ballet :)
Luckily, we got there that early because between finding a place to park and the Bird and I having to run all over campus to locate an ATM to pay for parking, Big Daddy Superstar barely made it to his seat in time.
The Bird spent the whole 2 hours staring at the stage and gasping in wonder. A trip to see the nutcracker for Christmas may be in order. :)
We are also exploring the idea of ballet lessons for her. Right now, she is in Just for Kix and she has lots of fun but we think the discipline and order of ballet may be something that helps her as well.
The Hardy Boys continue to plod through school. The oldest has now decided to take up basketball...in his senior year...to stay in condition for track.
The youngest got a pencil stuck in his trumpet...really...I can't make this stuff up.
Saturday, November 1, 2014
Halloween has come and gone.
This year I was so excited because the Bird wanted to be a princess...a PRINCESS!!! Princess Anna from Frozen. I spent more money than I care to imagine to make sure she had a really cool outfit. And then...she decided to be a pumpkin.
A real princess...I mean, one year she was a sandwich!!!
Oh well...it will be a nice play dress...a really nice, expensive, play dress.
Her pumpkin is still full of candy and she only wanted to eat candy for breakfast today...she managed real food for the other meals. :)
Today she had a doozy of a seizure...all in all, it lasted about 2 mins and her nose was drippy all day. We had to neb her tonight. Fingers crossed that she is better tomorrow.
The boys dressed up this year but no trick or treating. They both were at friends' houses...empty nest syndrome already.
Bring on the next holiday!!! This nest is ready!!! :)
This year I was so excited because the Bird wanted to be a princess...a PRINCESS!!! Princess Anna from Frozen. I spent more money than I care to imagine to make sure she had a really cool outfit. And then...she decided to be a pumpkin.
A real princess...I mean, one year she was a sandwich!!!
Oh well...it will be a nice play dress...a really nice, expensive, play dress.
Her pumpkin is still full of candy and she only wanted to eat candy for breakfast today...she managed real food for the other meals. :)
Today she had a doozy of a seizure...all in all, it lasted about 2 mins and her nose was drippy all day. We had to neb her tonight. Fingers crossed that she is better tomorrow.
The boys dressed up this year but no trick or treating. They both were at friends' houses...empty nest syndrome already.
Bring on the next holiday!!! This nest is ready!!! :)
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